I’m alive. I’m posting this while laying in bed trying to go to sleep cause my mind and body is telling me I need rest but just have had too much on the brain as of late and it tends to keep me up.
I’m not doing well at all on the diet front, yes Ive gone to the gym a few time and Ive done my best to try to stay motivated.
I’m really strugling to find what deep down inside is the problem that pushes me to food.
As Ive stated before in a previous post, I get on these kicks. Story of my life.
I haven’t stepped on a scale in a few weeks and I’m afraid to.
I’m not giving up, I just think I need to start over. Back to the basics.
I used to get emotionally upset about this all but I don’t anymore. I honestly think it’s because for once in my life Ive learned that I’m the only one that can change me. No one else but myself. I used to cry because I wanted someone to help. I used to cry because I was hoping that for example Chris Powell would come running to save the day.
The thing is even if the above were to happen, I still have to do it.
A friend of mine said to me in an email how she new that Ive always been the person that if I want something I always find a way to make it work. She also reminded me that it’s also my nature that in my worst of times. I’ve always
found a way to make it work.
I need to start all over back to square one. I need to take the you have to fail to succeed approach.
I need to dig down deep and find the I am, I can, instead of the I want, I will/tomorrow type attitude.
Thanks for letting me rant, be honest, be truthful & get this off my chest.
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