I can’t believe that on Sunday it will have been four years since you passed on. A lot has happened in my life that you missed and I so wish you could have been there to see it all. After you passed on, I continued my relationship with Amy who you only had the pleasure of knowing for a little less than 6 months. Amy and I moved in right next to Mom, Brandon, Stacey, Victor & Jesse. Marnie Brandon & Stacey’s new addition to our family would later come. Can you believe it dad a girl? She is something else Dad, so cute and looks just like her mommy. Brandon and Stacey gave me the honor of being her God Father. I’m a very proud Uncle.  I’m happy to tell you those 6 months after you had passed on I would ask Amy to marry me in front of 20K people at the Detroit Tigers game of all places. It was crazy I got paws the team mascot involved and everything. I wish you were around to hear Amy tell the Jeff Story…lol  Our relationship reminds me a lot of yours and moms. Just like the two of you we enjoy just getting away for a night going to a hotel just to relax and get away from everything. This is something that I picked up from your and moms relationship that also seems to work for us. Our wedding was perfect. That’s right your youngest son got married. Oct 23rd, 2009. You would have been so proud to see the smile on my face. I would have loved for you to be up there standing with all us guys. I’m a lucky man to have Amy as my rock and soul mate. She’s amazing Dad. She loves me for me. Sometimes I wish that my outer shell was different but she sees me so different than any other person has. I wish you would have gotten more time to have known each other. She takes care of me Dad. I’m bad at letting her know just how appreciated she is. I’m trying my best to work on that. I’m truly blessed. I know physically you weren’t there at the wedding but as Brandon (my best man) said to me “when you least expect it you look around and you’ll see him” I won’t get into detail but I think you know exactly what he meant by that. A year & month later Nov 17th, 2010. Amy & I would welcome our daughter Shelby into our lives. Another girl Dad. A lifelong dream of mine to become a father has become true. She’s absolutely perfect. A Little Italian baby. Brown eyes, brown hair, long eye lashes. Everyone says she looks just like me, but as she’s getting older I think she looks like her mommy. It’s crazy because a year has passed already and now our little girl is walking all over the place. I often cry and get upset that you can’t be around for these moments but I also find joy that every now and then I’ll look at my daughter and see you in her. Amy says that you knew her before we did. I believe it and as funny as it sounds she looks up in the sky often and just talks to it. I know it’s what baby’s do but the way I see it is she’s talking to her PaPa. Brandon and I talk about it from time to time how much you would enjoy all your grand kids. Mom is doing ok. It’s tough because there are times that I feel like I’m real short with mom in our conversations and it never used to be like that before you had passed away. I’m not sure she notices but I do it’s something that I’m not proud of and I try my best to correct it. I also try my best to get her to talk about you as much as possible. It makes me feel good to hear her talk about you. The months around the holidays are very tough for all of us  Someone once told me it gets easier as the years go on. I’m not so sure I agree with it. The Christmas Classic is still going strong. You’d be proud of Brett, Liz, Matt, Joe and their families. They do a fantastic job. I however get upset sometimes because I want to help out with the program but often feel like I have to go search out all the information and dates and times and it shouldn’t be like that. Maybe I’m overreacting and I’m sure you’d be telling me otherwise but I can’t change the way I feel, I know you would respect that. I also get upset when I see flyers and stories in the paper about you and the information or the dates are all wrong. How can someone get the date of your death wrong? or there be misinformation, Probably another thing I’m getting worked up about & shouldn’t. I know you always told me that all publicity is good publicity as long as they spell your name right and I’ve yet to see them mess that up. ..lol Brandon has been my go to guy in those father type of situations. He’s hard on me as you were, but I love him and I know how truly he cares about his lil brother. I tend to lean on him a lot and very thankful that he steps up everytime. You know I’m not at all the handy man, so when something is wrong at the house he’s always right there to help out. I had to come to terms one day when something affected my family and I wasn’t sure how I was going to get out of it. It was one of those Dads’s not here to wipe my ass type financial situations that had happened so many times in the past. I manned up and took care of it. I’m not sure what you would have told me to do, probably one of those lessons where there’s no right or wrong answer just a fork in the road. From everything that you had ever taught me, I do believe I did the right thing. I’m still struggling with my weight. it’s real hard and I’m sure sitting where your at you know just how hard it is for me. I still can’t find the answers and miss being able to get your life’s lessons about some of the subjects/questions I have. Brandon and I need you to know not to worry as we’re taking care of mom the best we can. She’s so strong dad, you’d be so proud of her. I know she struggles as we all do, but I personally think that she is doing better than I thought she would with it all. It’s tough to get her to go out but she’s adapting. She’s so involved in all the grand kids lives. I really miss you not being here. Sometimes I get so angry and want to fight the world. I get pissed now at the littlest things that I never used to. I now get pissed off at the things I can’t control. Another life’s lesson that you had told me was to never get mad at the things you can’t control. It’s hard stuff. I don’t always follow that one. There are so many things that go on and I so wish that I could turn look and see your smile. See you smiling at all the grand kids playing together. Seeing you smile at your sons and how we’ve become men and married and have family’s of our own. I miss your voice and god I miss talking Tiger Baseball with you. It’s crazy how I always have such vivid dreams of us together. Not once have you looked sick. We’re always doing something together which makes me happy and I’ll never forget the one where I woke up crying like a baby because I was able to hug you in it. I wouldn’t trade them for anything in the world.

I wish things were different but they can’t be, but I felt that I needed to write some of this stuff. I know there’s more and I know I really didn’t leave anything out because deep down I know you’ve been right there alongside it all.

Love and miss you like crazy.

Your Son,

Jess Jr.

Just a quick check in. The family and my mom were up in Frankenmuth, MI this weekend for the snow fest and to take advantage of our perks club benefits that gives us a free famous chicken dinner for the month of our birthday.  Check out some of the snow sculptures on display. The detail is just amazing. I’ve seen this done with ice but this was my first time seeing snow done up like this

Now the Main reason why you’re all here. BTB Sunglasses giveaway.  I’m gonna make this real simple. I got these sunglasses to review some time back and I’ve been procrastinating a review because I like them so much. But with every review requires that I do a little bit of homework.

This is a class company that really puts their name behind their product. So much so that they’ve also put their reputation on the line releasing a video like the one below. I won’t explain just watch.

That’s right bullet proof glasses. The glasses that I was able to review and will be giving away are the BTB 810′s Sport Optic Micro-fiber glass with pouch included. These things rock and I’m not one to wear sunglasses. One because I have bad eyes to begin with but mainly I have a lager face/head and I just can’t find a good pair that fit me well. I had no issues with these as they’re made for a larger frame face. The other added bonus was they don’t fog up either.

I may just have to get in touch with them about script sunglasses and I’d be all set.  I highly recommend these glasses and would love for you to check out their site.

If you’d like a chance to win the below pair, here is all you have to do. Leave a comment below telling me why you would like the pair of glasses and Friday night the 3rd of February I will have my wife Amy pick the best response and ship you out the pair.  Good Luck.

DISCLOSURE: BTB provided their product for review at no cost to me. As always, all opinions are honest, and strictly my own. For full Disclosure policy, click here.

I wanted to check in real quick and give you all an update on what’s coming up on the site.

First of all I’ve got some reviews and giveaways coming from the following

New Balance

Perky Jerky

BTB Glasses

Eat Smart

Also starting a new program that I will be blogging and vlogging my progress on you can check it out at the following site below. I’ve honestly never felt so good about a program working for me then this one.

Becoming a Rebel

Got some blog posts coming up as well

Gonna Live blog from the casting call in Detroit for EMWLE  (figure if they didn’t like my video for season 2 they need to see me in person)

A Letter to My Dad (get your tissues) It’ll be 4 years since his passing on the 5th of February

So with this all being said, I’m going to be keeping myself and the blog busy. I figure if I keep and continue blogging it will keep me more motivated and accountable

I just want to thank all my followers/readers you mean a lot to me and sometimes I don’t say enough how you all help in this battle and journey.

At apple store for first time. Should I buy it?

My personal goal it to lose 100 plus pounds by the time I board my flight for FitBloggin’12

Roughly 9 months to get there. I personally think I’m gonna crush this goal.

A lot more to come here on TooBIG.net as I continue to blog to stay motivated.

So what do you all think? I believe this is finally my time to do great things. TIME TO BECOME A SUCCESS STORY.

I beat myself up because I always want an answer. I always want to know why. So much so that I beat it till it’s blowing dust….lmao (made ya think for a min right?) But I’ve never been able to find the Y in Jess. I’ve never been able to find the answer. None of y0u can answer this for me, only me. You can all have your say or opinions but nope, not even a doctor can right a script for this disease. The answer my friend is in me.

It’s time to get serious about getting serious. It’s time for me to find the answer. Then and only then will I beat OBESITY.

So with that being said, I’m starting all over. Back to 0 pounds lost. This is my last attempt at getting it right. This is now my journey to find the answer.

STAY TUNED,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

If there’s anything that I could give advice on is on one simple task.

“water”

Plenty of it. I can’t tell you how much this simple recipe can help you all in your journey. This by far is the best recipe/advice one can give when losing weight.

The problem is finding a way to get in the daily amount. For most 8 glasses of water is not enough. What are some of the ways you all get your water in and how much water are you drinking in a day?

So I waited for our eye insurance to roll over and went and picked up some new specs. Wasn’t really sure what I wanted because I really liked the last pair that I had as well. I must admit I really do like these new pair even better. For those that really know me, my eyesight is pretty bad and driving at night for me with out my contacts is outta the question. Just ask my wife….lol. But I went with a pair of Oakley frame glasses. I didn’t even know they made prescription glasses. My insurance was great too picking up almost 80% of the tab.

More to come